Monday, May 14, 2012

Too much stress!

     Let me tell you the state of mind I was in last Thursday night.
  
     It was the night before the APUSH (AP United States History) Exam. I am not in AP, but my teacher told me I was capable, I could score high on it and so I agreed to take said examination.
 
     That was not what was going through my mind, believe me.

      Raw, terrifying, panic was overriding my senses. Believe me, I had studied all year for this, but I felt unprepared and started freaking out when I realized there were three Treaties of Paris. Plus, I had never been exceptional on the mid eighteen hundreds historical information.
      So, to say the least, I was scared. I started worrying and explained to my mother how I felt inadequate. She sat me down with some tea and told me I was more than capable and I could do it. Then she suggested I call or text my friends who were also taking the test and talk to them and maybe we could quiz each other. I texted each of them and learned they were freaking out too. We all then got on Facebook and quizzed each other.
      That day, I learned so much. Other than the fact that my mother is a genius (Love you Mom!), I learned that I am not the only one, and everyone, not just Aspies gets that "I am alone in the world" and "I am panicked" feeling before a test.  Having someone to calm you down and friends who can quiz you and sit close to you during the test for comfort is the greatest thing ever. Try to find people who can help you and make you feel safe. And calm down,  it literally is not the end of the world, it's just a test.

2 comments:

  1. Hi Teenage Aspie;
    I tried to post but it took several tries to get it to work. I can relate to you from a mom's perspective. My daughter was diagnosed at age 14--even though I knew something was not right all along. She just completed her freshman yr. of college. She is an English major with a Writing emphasis. Maybe you two can connect through your blog---she has no friends and is afraid to reach out because of being "burned" in the past.
    I always tell her to write --to get her fustrations out.

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